FAMILY

Family is a funny thing, isn’t it?

Some love you so much that you feel they are smothering you…

Some could care less if you fell from a bridge a week ago and they haven’t heard from you!

Mine is a little mixed…

My family could care less about one another is the way I feel most of the time.  Some of that could be the depression talking but most of it is true.  I have a strange family.  The last time we were al together my sister refused to talk to my grandma because she couldn’t fly to Ohio for her wedding.  I on the other hand have started talking to my whole family again and you really couldn’t even tell.  I feel like no one really cares about me.  I feel like if I were to pass away tomorrow the only ones that would morn my death would be my husband and my kids.  Let me tell you a little bit…..

 

(NOTICE)  THE FOLLOWING WILL GET ME YELLED AT IF EVER SEEN BY MY MOTHER…

 

I have always felt like I was not loved.  My mother did not tell us she loved us until I was in my 30’s.  My mother blamed me for her depression after my dad was sent away.  Me, because I couldn’t stand living with my grandpa, and spent most of my time away from there.  She thinks that I should have spent every waking moment making sure she was ok.  I was 14.  I can remember standing at the screen door at maybe age 4 or 5 and crying because she left for work.  I can remember always feeling that I was adopted and the disappointment in finding out I wasn’t…ßsad right?  I don’t know why she was like this.  All I do know is I have fought tooth and nail to NOT be like her!!!  

She let her husband kick us out of our home of 7 years because he needed an office…I didn’t speak to her for 3 years after that.  Then the Charlie thing happened and I thought “GOD, why did I come back!!!”  While I was mad at her my grandma said some things that she will deny till the day she dies and I missed my Aunt Jackie’s Funeral…L   ß  I miss her! 

 

On the other hand my MIL smothers us.  She bought us a house…ßgreat right ‘sigh’…I wish.  She bought it so we could stay next to her F-O-R-E-V-E-R!  J  She isn’t so bad (most of the time) ….

 

I am posting all of this because my sister is Pregnant.  She went to find the sex today.  She hasn’t called me yet.  HER MIL POSTED THE SEX ON FB!  I am just a depressed bitch is all.  Believe it or not I am not even PMSing!  Lol….. 

Fed up with BS

Ok so a little bit has happened since you have been gone.  I will start with my rant and work my way down.

Rant:  My uncles girlfriend is psycho.  No really I mean it she really is!  So my husband and I have only met this woman a couple of times.  Well when she started telling us all of every ones business we had met her once.  So Mert goes over there to finish something that he started and she comes out and starts talking to him again.  This time though it was about how J (my cousin) was trying to 'hook him up' with her husbands mom.  She then proceeded to tell MY husband that if he can date other people than she can too.  OK who in the hell cares!?  I don't and my MARRIED HUSBAND doesn't!  Why would you tell a married man that.  Mert says to me 'Meme I don't think that she is like that'  oh really?  Ok well I wasn't sure.  PFFT!  Bitch back the fuck up!  He is a married man, and if you know what is good for you, you will step the fuck off! 

Now my question for you is...am I wrong in being pissed off about it?

Rant #2:  Ok so we have horses.  You know this.  We have them in Mert's uncles pasture down the street.  They are in there with 2 other horses that are the neighbors'.  We feed everyday M-Sun without fail morning and night without their help because they don't live here.  That isn't my rant, nope I don't care about that.  Yesterday we were on our way to go and feed, were coming out of the driveway I see a horse in the ditch!  So.....I scream "HORSE OUT!  HORSE OUT!"  Then I see her (the owner)  she has let her horses out on a lead, to eat the grain in a bucket, that she brought down, in front of my 2 horses!   This pisses me off!!!!  Why would you do that?!  You don't feed your horses in front of mine, before I make it down there.  IT'S WRONG!!!!!  We don't do that to your horses, even though your mom in law can come and help us feed, but she doesn't!  WE feed your horses every damn day, and today because we are moving slow you want to get all impatient and take your horses out and feed them.  BITCH GO HOME!  Ok rant 2 done. 

Now on to a different matter.  My sister is prego!  yay!  We are hoping and praying for a girl!  Lots of pink and stuff!  Ok well enjoy your day.......