Family is a funny thing, isn’t it?
Some love you so much that you feel they are smothering you…
Some could care less if you fell from a bridge a week ago
and they haven’t heard from you!
Mine is a little mixed…
My family could care less about one another is the way I
feel most of the time. Some of that
could be the depression talking but most of it is true. I have a strange family. The last time we were al together my sister
refused to talk to my grandma because she couldn’t fly to Ohio for her
wedding. I on the other hand have started
talking to my whole family again and you really couldn’t even tell. I feel like no one really cares about
me. I feel like if I were to pass away
tomorrow the only ones that would morn my death would be my husband and my
kids. Let me tell you a little bit…..
(NOTICE) THE
FOLLOWING WILL GET ME YELLED AT IF EVER SEEN BY MY MOTHER…
I have always felt like I was not loved. My mother did not tell us she loved us until
I was in my 30’s. My mother blamed me
for her depression after my dad was sent away.
Me, because I couldn’t stand living with my grandpa, and spent most of
my time away from there. She thinks that
I should have spent every waking moment making sure she was ok. I was 14.
I can remember standing at the screen door at maybe age 4 or 5 and
crying because she left for work. I can
remember always feeling that I was adopted and the disappointment in finding
out I wasn’t…ßsad
right? I don’t know why she was like
this. All I do know is I have fought
tooth and nail to NOT be like her!!!
She let her husband kick us
out of our home of 7 years because he needed an office…I didn’t speak to her
for 3 years after that. Then the Charlie
thing happened and I thought “GOD, why did I come back!!!” While I was mad at her my grandma said some
things that she will deny till the day she dies and I missed my Aunt Jackie’s
Funeral…L ß I miss
her!
On the other hand my MIL smothers us. She bought us a house…ßgreat right ‘sigh’…I
wish. She bought it so we could stay next
to her F-O-R-E-V-E-R! J She isn’t so bad (most of the time) ….
I am posting all of this because my sister is Pregnant. She went to find the sex today. She hasn’t called me yet. HER MIL POSTED THE SEX ON FB! I am just a depressed bitch is all. Believe it or not I am not even PMSing! Lol…..
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